Today was a rough day. It was one of those days that you just need to sit down and eat some candy! So, that’s what I did. I’m not going to tell you that it made me feel better but it sure did taste good! And, yes, I took a picture of all the candy that I ate! Someone needs to hold me accountable! There’s nothing like being completely vulnerable for anyone and everyone to read about it!
I have been struggling for about a year with wanting to go “home.” You see, we moved about a year ago. I left what I thought was my “forever home” and I came to a BIG city. Well, it’s a BIG city to me! To others, it’s probably puny! I have felt a little lonely in this big city. I left behind some really good friends. Friends that I have had for a while, friends that I could call to go to dinner with, friends that would drop off cookies at my door, friends that would go to the gym with me, friends that would take their kids to the park with my kids, friends that went to my church, friends that cared about me and knew every detail of my life. Well, you get the point….I left my FRIENDS! As a stay at home mom, I NEED friends. I need the support system that all my friends provided for me. The other thing about me, I’m kind of a shy girl. I’m getting better about stepping outside of my comfort zone, but it’s not my favorite thing! So, it’s hard for me to meet friends. I know that God will provide. I just need to step out of my comfort zone and trust that He has a plan for me being in this big city!
So, my rough day was just a lonely day. My little guy was missing his buddies and I was missing my girls! I had no one to call to go to a play place or go to get coffee. Usually, I can handle hanging out without any adult conversation, but you combine a husband that was gone all week and no adult interaction, it made for one cranky, lonely mama! I am thankful that God gives new days to start over, to feel refreshed and recharged. I look forward to a new day!